outofmymind

song of the day - save me

Wed, 18 Feb 2015 08:54:50 GMT

classic, Queen - Save me

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getting out of bed

Wed, 01 Oct 2014 06:40:05 GMT

..in the morning can be dreadful and cold and horrible.
..or nice and comfy and cuddly and make you smile.
..other people may also have visual representation for a form of .. trying to do it.

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song of the day - awesome morning soundtracks

Tue, 23 Sep 2014 07:58:33 GMT

can't help but make this the song for simply being happy in the morning because of.. hmmmmmm reasons I will keep undisclosed in public posts. but I am just smiling and happy, no matter being late in the morning, rain, storms, weird faces, problems at work, boring things or annoyances. all while this song is in my head and earphones ^^

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song of the day - alone

Fri, 19 Sep 2014 07:25:36 GMT

just loving it
*sends kiss to the sweetheart and hugs to friends

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it's friday

Fri, 19 Sep 2014 06:24:36 GMT

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the joys of telelearning

Fri, 05 Sep 2014 09:06:47 GMT

besides all the fun technical problems and background commentary from different students..
a teacher who is not a teacher and hates being asked the same thing over and over.
"Manchmal habt ihr die geistige Beweglichkeit einer Betonwand." ~ something like "You're mentally as flexible as concrete."

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sis, you really piss me off

Mon, 25 Aug 2014 07:08:07 GMT

no, I don't call you but why should I when you're supposed to invite people to your daughter's birthday. that's not something guests do themselves! well, at least I'm not doing it.
and I still am not over what you said..

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feeling like a genie

Wed, 20 Aug 2014 08:22:13 GMT

genuis? genie? whiz?
anyroads, listening to a lecture in german and simultaneously a (not as loud) livestream in englisch and catching ~80% of each.. awesome! really making me feel geeky and good. timeshare! double time. work it, baby. I will know everything *insert master laugh*

and whoo *shoutout* to the sab protest movement! #occupysab2014
peeps in gw2 are standing in front of sab in many maps crying, partying, demanding to be let in, praising sab and its fun, asking anet to open it or make it permanent.. anything. it's beautiful. spend a fair amount of time last night dancing in front of sab boom boxes, crying because I miss it, debating writing bug reports of blocked progress in sab and starting fireworks. also screaming at moto to hurry up updating. it's been a year, bunny, a whole year. I want hoppy paradise back..

more sab or we riot!

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song of the day - no regrets

Tue, 19 Aug 2014 06:26:28 GMT

I know, I know. I cannot move away from JRock. on the other hand, why would I? since I started listening at an age around 13 I haven't stopped. the bands I listen to most might change, the style might change slightly, the musicians might get older, but the passion is still there. since I have been doing it for so long, this music is connected to every part of me, of my life. most of my memories, good and bad, are intertwined with one piece or another.
I could tell you about the weeks/ months when I felt so unsure and nervous about new parts of my life and the album I put in my cd-player. the album that played every night through the night, lulling me to sleep and making me cry and also wrapping me in a cocoon of goodness.
I could tell you about walking home from school to certain songs. or hiding at home under headphones, trying to shut of the rest of the world.

I could talk about many things, and some day I might. but today, we are with a song that touched something in me the first time I heard it, and every time since. the piano version is bitter sweet and was a long established piece in my regular old music rotation (when, granted, my collection was not as big). anyroads, there is this live version of both Gackt on piano and Kami on drums. and it just adds drama and emotion. there was a time I listened to it for hours on end. like this morning. alright, enough talk, back to goth-y nostalgia.
Malice Mizer - Regret (Kami and Gackt Duett)

R.I.P. Kami

update: and what did my trusty player give me all the way home? the forementioned album. made me slightly melancholy but also happy.

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song of the day - just jam along

Mon, 18 Aug 2014 10:10:55 GMT

I have this rolling in the background. has me swaying along and just havin' a good time at work. makes all boring discussions bearable ^^
Miyavi - 7 Samurai Sessions

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song of the day - monday morning

Mon, 11 Aug 2014 08:03:37 GMT

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song of the day - rouge obsession

Fri, 08 Aug 2014 07:01:17 GMT

day two of me listening to this song up and down.
thank you sugizo, for giving me something beautiful to obsess about. \^^/
( impressions )

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song of the day - round and round

Wed, 06 Aug 2014 10:12:13 GMT

first song my player gave me today.
hide - hurry go round
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song of the day - time is dead

Tue, 05 Aug 2014 07:55:03 GMT

and sometimes just moves slowly. good music can fill in some bleak spaces.
Luna Sea - Time Is Dead (20 yr anniversary tour - kurofuku gentei)

edit: the whole concert is messing with me on the one hand and calming me on the other. it's like I am here and taking information in, but I am also flying in fan-lands diembodied....

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song of the day - enjoy the silence

Mon, 04 Aug 2014 09:29:20 GMT

starting monday morning before your alarm and in pain.. bad. not even getting distracted by work because the computer programs failed.. longing to be back in bed while you stare at the rain..
and then when work started you were expected to copy stuff. when you weren't talked at and onto your headache.. copy time my favourite time. because I listened to nice things all the while. (and remembered me singing this with a chorus back in school)
blessed musical silence.
I also never knew what a cutie Paul Simon was ;)

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song of the day - shady

Mon, 14 Jul 2014 01:15:59 GMT

I met my bunch of crazies again yesterday. wonderful evening, I needed that.
now I cannot decide which is the song. I feel as torn and mental as I maybe seemed last night.

( choices )
edit: this is only version 7 or so of this post.. cuts and youtube embedding are not my friends..

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sister

Sat, 12 Jul 2014 01:48:16 GMT

fu, sis.
I love you, too.
don't call me.

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song of the day - It's not getting any better

Fri, 11 Jul 2014 01:21:43 GMT

For a few days I had this song coming a little closer. Now I have been singing this one line for hours and hours. It's turning over and from left to right and in on itself and back again in my head. I think I have the voice but I am unusually missing any other line before or after. It's just not getting any better. This sad voice and sad line. Again and again.
It's just not getting any better.
It's not getting any better.

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song of the day - demons

Fri, 11 Jul 2014 01:09:50 GMT

HELL NO!!

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song of the day - scream it out

Fri, 11 Jul 2014 01:08:10 GMT

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disappointment

Thu, 19 Jun 2014 00:59:43 GMT

“Let me tell you this: if you meet a loner, no matter what they tell you, it's not because they enjoy solitude. It's because they have tried to blend into the world before, and people continue to disappoint them.”
― Jodi Picoult, My Sister's Keeper

“Part of the problem with the word 'disabilities' is that it immediately suggests an inability to see or hear or walk or do other things that many of us take for granted. But what of people who can't feel? Or talk about their feelings? Or manage their feelings in constructive ways? What of people who aren't able to form close and strong relationships? And people who cannot find fulfillment in their lives, or those who have lost hope, who live in disappointment and bitterness and find in life no joy, no love? These, it seems to me, are the real disabilities.”
― Fred Rogers, The World According to Mister Rogers: Important Things to Remember

“You must make a decision that you are going to move on. It wont happen automatically. You will have to rise up and say, ‘I don’t care how hard this is, I don’t care how disappointed I am, I’m not going to let this get the best of me. I’m moving on with my life.”
― Joel Osteen, Your Best Life Now: 7 Steps to Living at Your Full Potential

“It was one of those times you feel a sense of loss, even though you didn't have something in the first place. I guess that's what disappointment is- a sense of loss for something you never had.”
― Deb Caletti, The Nature of Jade

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song of the day - no one

Wed, 18 Jun 2014 03:53:49 GMT

Band of Horses - No One's Gonna Love You, Rockpalast Kulturkirche Köln 2010 this version is just getting to me every time.
( emotional )

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urgh

Wed, 18 Jun 2014 03:28:38 GMT

I freakin dislike myself for being so drifting, undecided, unsure and insecure in this world.
I don't know, okay. I don't know what to do, what could be good or bad. not right. I know some things that are bad for me, which is bad because they are not for most other people. and no, conforming is not that easy. not now, maybe not ever.
so, what am I doing then? decisions need to be made. somehow.

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my custom desktop

Sun, 15 Jun 2014 00:12:38 GMT

EDIT: added some pictures in the end so the background show seems more like a show ^^.

so I customized my desktop over several ~~days~~ nights with a cool theme I named potato game grunge. if you keep going and wanna read the details, you will get why. maybe some people already do....
anyway this is what it looks like

(uhm.. okay. photo on internet. yeah, this is my old wordpress thingy. yes dreamwidth, please work on that picture hosting thing of yours.)

( loads of boring details and links, but also some pictures at the end )
I think I am set for now. I learned a bunch *phew* and managed not to break anything (yet). we'll see if I find other little things I change or I make a different theme. later.. rest now. ah btw, I adjusted my backgrounds again to lighter ones so I can see the apps. its a few from the pack and new ones from angerina I found.
just saying it again because it's what I love, use, enjoy and admire. angerina warpride makes awesome little potato images which I guess started back when WoodenPotatoes did a daily video series before and for the launch of GuildWars2.
I have to admit though, while working I watched different LPs, both other games and gamers. *defends herself* only because I have listened to each VisualWood propably a few times at this point and need a teeny tiny break. today is sunday! I'll be there! okay, right now I am watching the Ni no Kuni LP by Special Attack (he has a nice voice, cares about the story [both a big plus for me], a guest commentator ^^. he also did a LP of FFXIV I watched. right, I do forget to mention the game was animated by Studio Ghibli and has music by Joe Hisashi! must watch! and absolutely adorable! if I want one console game to come to android, and am prepared to pay a sum for, it's this one!)

/bow and goodnight ^^/

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I wanna look at rl like this

Mon, 19 May 2014 02:38:33 GMT

]daw *gush*uuuh*aaaah*patatapat* most cute ever http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MFlCD_IaTE8
his vids are awesome! LOLOLOLOL http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B4NfStkDz50

why is this so funny? and adorable. I wanna ruffle the hair bonus! if you wanna see some funny relationship stories and knuffle voices watch the break-ups aka bitches-be-craazay series
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6tHc3CStR0E
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=31QiB_wTtDQ
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P5XDNp-le5U 'meh' ^^
can ppl in rl pls move like the domic does? pls *glimmereyedblink*
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=54jDCKcQqBI ; sad story -_- and the rest is even more sad. find it if you like

sing it http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LAS4CSLAiyY

cutey ^^

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