song of the day - vigil, I am fine.

[outofmymind]

since I find myself in a phase of bad sleep rhythm once again there is a lot of weird feelings coming up sometimes. so much going on in my head and I try to make myself think clearly again. it is hard, because what feels real and right if you live kind of on the opposite of everyone else? they have dinner, I have breakfast, there is a brief period of overlapping awake time, they go to bed, I think about lunch. and then I am hellishly awake when I should be resting, thoughts rampaging, imagination flowing, energy zapped and bubbling (no I can't decide which and that is exactly how I have been feeling this past week). I am all over the place and nowhere. not the point of this post..
 

well, there sometimes is need for the hurting and pulling-your-heartstrings kind of music which includes this song for me.
Counting Crows - Colorblind
www.youtube.com/watch
There are many things to say about 'I am fine.' but I guess my friends already had a version that explains it better than I could right now.


The feeling in the song is just perfect for those moments you have no idea what you feel and are a bit lost. Every now and then I really need it.