standing upright and turning brain off

seems the way to go. at least I keep on moving with this technique. I am slowly crawling out of a dark hole and being active and working on some things. doing better, maybe. for now. 
and I hope this trend will continue on for a while. it makes a person feel not completely useless if you have something to look upon at the end of the day and realise it was something you did or made. makes me feel okay. downside is: I keep every serious thought and concern about real-world-problems away from me. just click off and reboot if something comes too close. protect myself for now and work on getting there without breaking.
I usually have phases when things are better and when things are worse (aka really going down the drain) and I hope this itsy bitsy spider climbing up will withstand the next rain.